Bad day [01 Apr 2004|11:00pm] [ mood | crappy ] [ music | Bonedriven - Bush ] How ironic that my last rant's all about a good day---while today was just one of the crappiest days of my life. It's strange in a way that it has to be April Fools. Nobody's played tricks on me, but maybe it would have made everything funnier. First off, I had layout class this morning. For some dark reason, nobody understands how to do layout posing. I'm not any better than the others, but I manage to end up remembering how to make the field guides, the security paint, the backgrounds---you know, all the technical stuff. It's all about memory. So, I've quickly become the natural reference when it comes to layout posing. No kidding, I help everyone. Well, today we got our first mark, and I got a lousy 79%. It wasn't that bad until I noticed that everybody else had 90%. I'm not jealous, I... I just find it ironic that I have the crappiest grade of all while I'm the one helping the others out. On top of that, we were working on the vertical pan and had to do a curved background for an accentuated effect. I just couldn't get to draw anything at all. There was fifteen minutes of class left and I still hadn't begun anything. The teacher started helping me, and I finally understood how to do it, but I just had his goddamn example in mind and couldn't draw anything else but cliffs and trees while I didn't want to do cliffs and trees. Now I don't know if I should rather start it over for self-satisfaction (it isn't evaluated, it's just for practice) or just finish those goddamn cliffs and forget about it. To get my mind off it, I decided to do some animating and finish the rough. Well, I couldn't finish it in time and I'm angry. I'm at a pretty advanced state compared to the others, but I couldn't reach my goal and that's what frustrates me. Véro was mad at me because she couldn't understand why I was complaining while I hadn't to worry about being late. I'm sorry, but no matter how far I am compared to anyone, not doing what I had planned to do is still frustrating and makes me feel unproductive and slow. There. And my animation's ending is terribly crappy and jolty. In short---it sucks. And when animation's going wrong, everything is. I found out today that I have to pay my next semester within the next week, so it's another $111 off my bank account. It wouldn't be that big if I hadn't decided to take summer class. You see, next year's my final one and I'm starting my film; and as if it weren't enough, I have other, unrelated classes to attend: English and complimentary courses. I'm planning on doing one complimentary course this summer so I won't have to do it during my film. The thing is, it costs $105 per course. Thank goodness I'm only taking one. It's super-compressed so I'll be doing a semester's amount of work in only one month so it's all good. I'm planning on taking either "History of the United States" or something like it. The other ones were just boring. I also found out the grade I had in the English classification test: 80/85, which means I'm in the advanced class. I'll be doing literature. God. Back to the bad day. I sucked big time in badminton but it's not the first time so I didn't pay too much attention. It's when I left school for work that I noticed I hadn't my discman---for one---and that I had lost my student's card. Making another one costs ten bucks, goddammit! My sandwich was dry. Once at work I was feeling so crappy that I wanted to cry, for no reason really. Holding back tears during your shift isn't an easy task. I cried a bit but no one noticed. I still don't know why I cried. I suppose it's the sum of all those little things that happened today and made my life shittier. Or it's the exhaustion, I don't know. Or maybe both. I found my student's card in my shorts' pocket once back home. I knew I never lose anything. 8 : +

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