Current mood:	depressed
Current music:	Silence!

Look... Sam is depressed.
Hey... it's kinda funny when you think about it. I'm never depressed. When I am, it's for really dumb reasons.

I am depressed because I can't draw anymore... I usually take that with a smile saying: "It's okay people, I'll snap out of it somehow!" but now I don't feel like that anymore... I'm in a grave artist block, and on top of that, even if I look at my best drawings, I always come to the same conclusion: I don't like what I draw.

Some people are going to throw things at me, but let me explain...

I don't like the way I draw eyes. That sounds dumb. I try to change, but whenever I try to do that, I can't happen to draw pretty faces. So then I don't like the way I draw faces. I've also never liked the way I draw hair, and I suck at body proportions. Earlier, Tsuki tried to cheer me up by encouraging me and showing me art sites for me to base my next drawings on (thanks, Tsuki, I really appreciate that) but... I feel as if I was a hopeless case... my artwork is not unique, it's so common it's sickening. On Elfwood, I get many comments saying that my art is so colorful. Colorful! What about the style?

I want to have an unique anime style... I KNOW it's possible but I can't do it...

Being so depressed, I almost feel like closing A.B.Y.S.S. for good. If that site only belonged to me, it would probably be gone now... but since I'm sharing it with Tsuki, I know I can't close it.

I used to be optimistic about everything... I don't know what happened to me since then. I don't know why I'm so depressed by a reason that usually makes me laugh. I think I'll stop drawing for a while...

I perhaps need a break.